Work from 5pm -11pm
Thought that today there's OT but there isn't:(

I don't feel tired at all
I feel like continue working my way through
I know that I'm not a machine but I do know my limits

I want to work and earn my own money
I want to feel how hard it is to earn money
I have to stop being spendthrif
I have to occupy myself be it work or other things to halt me from certain things

I want to spend more time with A
It's been a long time since just the 2 of us just chilled and catch up
I miss A so much
Meet up soon alright A

its (28/2, 2.50am)
and still I'm not sleepy
well i guess i listen to music and get some rest
till then

Bad day to start out with
Eyes swollen and I guess I'm about to lose my voice soon

Couldn't sleep well this few days
Mind was else where
I felt non other than "Alone"

No work for me till "Sunday"
Am desperate to work
JOBS ANYONE???

How's your day
How's the activities
Everything's going smoothly I guess???
Take care and have lots of fun @ the same time
Hydarate yourself with water
(25/2 12.27am)

Time flies
2 days passesby neither i can say quick nor slow
see you in a few hours i guess???
Hope that you alright
(26/2 2.01am)

I can't get in touch with you
Just wanna have somebody to chat with you are the only person I could think about
So I'm leaving you messages, hope that you return, you will see it...:)

TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF WHEN YOU ARE AWAY FOR THIS FEW DAYS..:)(WL)

MONEY IS TIME, TIME IS MONEY

I MISS MY LONG HAIR

SAY HELLO TO MY SHORT HAIR

Somethings are just not meant to be the way we always wanted

Somethings are better when voiced out, knowing how someone think/feel towards

Couldnt help but agree with you that different people have different perception
Guess both of us are kinda similar
We tend to think alot

Haven't blog for quite some time
Many things have happen
Both Happy and Sad times

I know that I should be responsible to tell you where my whereabouts
Sometimes I just afraid to face you and tell you in person knowing that you wont allow
But I just want you to know that, Don't be worry for me.
I am still the same old me
(D)

I'm apologising to you because of what my aunt had told you about christianity
Please do not take it too hard alright???
Once again I apologise....I'M SORRY:(

Hope to get a job soon
at least 2 jobs
so that there's money coming into my pocket

Till then...

A - ITY

Losing someone whom you treasure is the most difficult time of life
If only I could turn back time and prevent this from happening
I know that in a relationship/friendship or the person who you really treasure
Communication & Trust is the most important

I've lost people whom i treasure and close to me along the way
Right now, the person I've got is only you

I'M SORRY AND I PROMISED NOT TO DO IT AGAIN

Basically I can't say anything that will make you trust me again
Probably a time out for me and only time will tell
We may not see each other as we did before, or confide in each other
I know if i had a problem you'll be there for me

LIKE I'VE SAID, I WILL BE THERE 24/7 FOR YOU
JUST A CALL/MESSAGE, I WILL BE THERE FOR YOU IN A SECOND

Why of all such things it happen so sudden
I know what I did to you may have hurt you
Right now you find it hard whether to trust me or not
I really don't know what to do
I really need you by my side
All I ask is for another chance

Why do you keep chasing me away???
It feels that you want me out of your life
Now that you are not giving me the attention like before
I really feel hurt like a thousand arrows just came piercing through my heart

How can I say???
Say that I will be ok???
And if I fall through this days that goes by without cause
just a painful mistakes have left me here on my own
And if i fall through this nights can seem to go on
Just a sign that you with me give me the strength to hold on

It's funny how much heart just wont let it go
I just dont understand
Its crazy how this pain seems to overflow
the memories of you here with me by myside

Now that the lines been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why is it have to be this way???
I really hope that thing would be the same as last time

Expectation does not equal to reality
I can't expect things to turn out the way I want in reality
Give it our best cause I shouldn't live life with regret

Don’t know where to start
Something ain’t going right
Feel it in my soul cause I’ve tried
Try to keep you satisfied
I just think we all need time
I just feel that we aren’t in the same room
But live in two worlds apart

I realise that you can’t be there when I fall
I keep lying to myself that you were the one but I guess it’s not
Everyday life goes on like this
I wish I could talk to you for a while
I wish I could find a way not to cry
Maybe our character’s not compatible and it’s hard for both to communicate properly

There are times and seemingly overwhelming situations that I find myself in when letting go is still a process

To this very day, there are still times when a wall of shame and anxiety crashes on top of me. But as with everything else, I deal with it as best as I can and it passes. Through time, a lot of work and maturity I see my past for what it was not. And for what I believe it still is.

My past will always be a part of me. But it’s only a part, a very small fraction of my entire life. When I look at it that way it helps.

Sometimes you just have to go back and reclaim your self-worth. Maybe you have to dig deep to retrieve what you once lost.

If you dont' give those who care a chance to care for you , you will make them sad. Imagine if I were to lock myself up in sadness. How would you feel???

(M.E)

(IS IT TRUE???)

How can I accept it???

Can we change things that are not within our control???

W.T.M.L.