Why???
I don't like the way things going on
I hope that things would fall back in place between you guys

For UT's
I did pretty bad
B,C+,C+,D+E

Are those words meant for me???
I don't know
But I feel that it is...

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I promise you
I won't forget the times the tears that I cried
You'll always be the sun in my sky
It may be fate that brings us back to meet again
Someday even though we go separate ways

A:
If the day should come when you need someone
You know that I'll follow
I will be there
Don't ever let there be a doubt in your mind
Cause I'll remember you

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Dear Readers
Even though I have problems in my life
I will get back up
Yes, I'm emotional who break down very easily
There are others who out there suffering out
I shouldn't pity myself cause I consider myself fortunate

It doesn't mean because of one person, It will affect my entire life
Don't judge me because of whatever happens
I may put up a strong front, but who knows that when I'm alone I just break down

TOODLE-OO

Yesterday I had a short chat with M
I cried while chatting with her since its been a while
I don't know what I can do to help her knowing that she's having problems and sick
Knowing that she's having a hard time there
I myself having some problems and I don't want to burden about my problems to her

M:I have not been working lately
Me:Why?
M:Because I hurt my back
Me:Are you ok???
M:But have to walk slowly
M:You know I am getting old
Me:You're only 48
M:Nope I hit onto something when I walk and hurt it
M:Women get older faster
M:After I have given birth to 4 children

Me:How's everything over there???
M:So So
M: So be good ok???
M:I will have to look for a new job
M:I can't go on without working because I need to pay for the house and other things too
M:If not uncle will have to work extra hard
Me:Its hard on you
M:Tough time over here you know with this economy crisis going on
Me:I feel helpless when I couldn't even help you
M:Don't worry about me, just take care of yourself
M:I am very happy
M:I know you are a strong boy, don't depend on other people
Me:Its not like the first time you know me, I'm very emotional and sentitive

Me:Why won't you scold me
M:Why should I scold you
Me: Because I'm a stubborn person
M:You are big enough
M:Just like me
Me:How I wish you were here
M:I wish too, I really miss you guys alot
M:I am so sorry I am not around to be with you
M:I hope I could make up with you
M:I wish you could take a break and visit me

I'm feel hurt and sad

I"M SORRY M
I PROMISE YOU, I WILL BE GOOD AND STUDY HARD
MAKE YOU PROUND

For the time being...I need to find myself back

Till then...

LIKE I ALWAYS DO

To Be Continue...

I just got banned from my job
Firstly the boss is so unreasonable
I could'nt care less about this job
Fuck it

As much as I'm hurt about what happened, there's nothing else I can do
Because the more I think, the painful it will be
(Extract from B's)

A time out is all I could give myself

And Grams, Get well soon...
MUM, I NEED U, Its been a while since I last saw and contact you

till then

How do you feel when you are being forgotten???
Am I that transparent to you knowing that I'm right infront of you???

I hate this tears in my eyes
I hate myself the way I feel about you everytime

Guess that karma hits back on me
I feel completely lost not knowing who to turn to at this moment

THERE ARE THINGS THAT WE DON'T WANT TO HAPPEN BUT HAVE TO ACCEPT, THINGS WE DON'T WANT TO KNOW BUT HAVE TO LEARN, AND PEOPLE WE CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT BUT HAVE TO LET GO

My leg is seriously in pain...
Gosh, its killing me...
Hope tmr the pain will be gone...

Be gone

I think I should just mind my own business and not help others
Helping others knowing that they are busy, and what did I get in the end
bad attitude and scolding
Just focus on the things that I have to do and not get in people's way:(

Dear Diary

I'm back from chalet
From Sun till today
This few days have been a tiring week

Busy working for lenovo Mon - Next Tues(expect sunday -BQT)
Travelled all the way from pasir ris to woodlands
1 mrt 3 buses we took(transportation cost alot)
Everyday have to wake up at 5 am

Lenovo seems to be very tiring job even though I am doing the admin job
issuing of invoice, payment, filing etc
Money collected have to tally with the documents that were typed in the excel
Handling huge some of money could be a headache for me, me and Brenda(the main incharge) would be responsible if there's missing of money.

Jason the over all in charge seems to be a weird person
Sometimes, he's joking while sometimes his face is as black as " BAO QING TIAN" his nick name
Admin is the most horrible job, when an invoice is wrongly filled up thus we have to void.
Got scolded from him telling me off saying "do not let them take the invoice, ask them for the model of laptop that they will be selling and issue the right invoice. "you think I've got lots of invoice to spare"
Somehow working life is like that, even though its not your fault, we would often get scolding.

Congratulations to
Wei liang, Hellven and Eileen whom sold more than 25 laptop
U guys have work so hard pushing sales and thus earn a movie vocher
Keep up the good work and maybe you guys could sell another 25 sets???
Money going into your pocket

If there's any grammatic/vocabulary errors
I apologise, heavy eyes
Alright, I shall stop and heed the sack
Tmr will be working
Till then
Tmr will be better:)

To be continue...

I'm tired

On My Own
We're probably looking forward to being on our own someday, not having someone else tell you what to do all the time?
Does independence mean being free from every rule?
Do some rules actually make you more free?

I have been thinking alot lately
Somehow I have been thinking for myself but didnt spare a thought for others especially _
A thought on my own turns out to cause nothing but trouble
I know that I think alot, but I really hope you would understand the message that I'm getting to you

No worries, I could only blame myself
Thoughts of mine would wander about and go even far out of the picture
I need to clarify things out before making assumption
I'm sorry _, I do not understand the situation that you are in
I will be more understanding from now onwards

I feel so useless, when I couldn't even lend a helping hand
Rejections makes me feel even more useless, as if there is really nothing I could do for a friend

I do not want to have any misunderstanding against one another anymore
It just hurts so bad when we fall out with one another

I don't know who to turn to @ this moment
How do I contact you ever since the incident happen and when you are busy???


A complicated mind and life
"Is connecting with someone really this complicated or do we make it worse?"
------Peyton Sawyer------

HIDDEN MESSAGE:

Will this day ever arrive???

Will the person I least expected come up and do this to me???

Things aint going well for me:(

BUSY SCHEDULE AND HECTIC WEEK FOR ME NEXT WEEK ONWARDS

1)CHALET
2)LAPTOP ROAD SHOW
3)BQT

- - - - - - - - - - - - - WORK - - - - - - - - - - - - -

FEELING GUILTY
I KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO
...TMR WILL BE BETTER FOR YOU...

CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE
I'M LOST
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE SHOW ME THE WAY???


Have you ever had a time in your life where you need to make a life altering decision?

I have had many of these. But I have also suffered from other people’s terrible decision making…

You being the one who controls your own body comes across millions of decision’s a day, from what to eat, what to wear, how to do your hair, who to call…you get the idea. Well, what most of us do not realize..? With making a decision comes total responsibility. You have a choice, you come to that fork in the road, you make you decision, it is YOUR responsibilty, no matter you condition, you have complete control over your body.

So please, for every one’s sake, take on your responsibilty with making decision, and make sure you fully support your decision even after the fact. To be quite honest with y’all, I am sick and tired of hearing the same old crap of how “i had no control over myself!” you did, you chose, you lost, not my fault. I am sick of people not taking responsibilty over their decisions. Step up, be a man, and take the blame like a man, if need be.

"Sometimes you have to be apart from people you love,But that doesn't mean you love them any less,Sometimes it even makes you love them more.

---(NICHOLAS SPARKS)---

A,
I'm Sorry