Yesterday I had a short chat with M
I cried while chatting with her since its been a while
I don't know what I can do to help her knowing that she's having problems and sick
Knowing that she's having a hard time there
I myself having some problems and I don't want to burden about my problems to her

M:I have not been working lately
Me:Why?
M:Because I hurt my back
Me:Are you ok???
M:But have to walk slowly
M:You know I am getting old
Me:You're only 48
M:Nope I hit onto something when I walk and hurt it
M:Women get older faster
M:After I have given birth to 4 children

Me:How's everything over there???
M:So So
M: So be good ok???
M:I will have to look for a new job
M:I can't go on without working because I need to pay for the house and other things too
M:If not uncle will have to work extra hard
Me:Its hard on you
M:Tough time over here you know with this economy crisis going on
Me:I feel helpless when I couldn't even help you
M:Don't worry about me, just take care of yourself
M:I am very happy
M:I know you are a strong boy, don't depend on other people
Me:Its not like the first time you know me, I'm very emotional and sentitive

Me:Why won't you scold me
M:Why should I scold you
Me: Because I'm a stubborn person
M:You are big enough
M:Just like me
Me:How I wish you were here
M:I wish too, I really miss you guys alot
M:I am so sorry I am not around to be with you
M:I hope I could make up with you
M:I wish you could take a break and visit me

I'm feel hurt and sad

I"M SORRY M
I PROMISE YOU, I WILL BE GOOD AND STUDY HARD
MAKE YOU PROUND

For the time being...I need to find myself back

Till then...