Our action are what set things in motion. But we have to live with that. It hurts me, knowing what I’ve done and that pain is with me all the time. It wouldn’t be that easy, and every day, I fight that. And I am so terrified that one day, I’m not gonna want to fight that anymore. And the next time I hurt somebody, it could be you.

I know you have no reasons to trust or believe me. I really appreciate the second chance. Everyone deserves one. I have been doing everything possible not to face the fact and I don’t have any explanations that are gonna satisfy you.